Okay that was TOTALLY easy!! The only thing is I can't choose a mood...

Okay wow, I know I said I would update this more, and that pretty much was a lie haha. I guess i'm not good at keeping journal or diary type things. I'm trying to use flock's blog editor to see how and if it will actually work.

Pretty sad huh, that's the reason why I'm posting. If it makes it easier to blog though, I might start posting more. I can't make any promises though... :)

i'm noticing that i am VERY ANGRY!!! and it's probably due to exhaustion because i haven't gotten a good night's rest in past month, but i'm really starting to notice it now, and you know what, it makes me even more tired. and i'm even more angry because i shouldn't have to waste my time worrying about stupid morons anyway!!!!! it's a long story but i've been starting to notice how irritable i am ESPECIALLY this week. right now, people just need to stay away from me so i can get my shit done and not have to stress about the stupid asses. literally, every little thing gets to me at this point and it's probably because i've been sleeping at like 5 and 6 in the morning and have to go to school or work at 8:30 or 9. i had ENOUGH. i'm even starting to get irritated at my friends and that's not good. i just need to get past next week and i'll eventually become normal again. maybe later i'll dive deeper into specifics about what's angering me but right now i don't think it's such a good idea because it'll make me more mad. all i have to say is i almost punched two people today and i really can't take talking to anyone, except for my sister. anyways i have projects to finish so i'll be back later to finish this rant.

okay, so i was thinking. i have a livejournal, and i RARELY if not NEVER post in it. i mean it's good because it allows me to keep up with my addiction to arashi, but i wonder if i should start using it as a real journal. my sister has been doing posts everyday and i was coming to think that's a cool idea because it documents what you're going through and it's a trip to look back on it. it might just be a good way to get things off my chest, and who knows, possibly keep me sane in my crazy, hectic life. or maybe i'll use it as another place to list off all the things i have to do, just to keep the record straight for my brain. well i guess here it goes..

right now i'm stressed. haha, like you really didn't see that coming. it's down to the last two weeks of the quarter and i'm about to graduate. i actually really should be finishing my projects, but hey, i've been working all week and i think i deserve a little break at least. it just seems like i have a lot of things to do for these last projects, and i know exactly what needs to be done, it's just getting to it. i think i'm getting a little burnt out.

PLUS, last night i stayed up until 1:30 working on the reality show which i didn't expect, i was hoping to finish my DVD, but that didn't happened. and i don't know why but i ended up staying up past 3. i think it was because after i got into bed, motocrossed was on and that was one of my favorite classic disney movies, where the girl dresses up as her twin brother so she can race in the pro cup. but anyway, i digress, that's beside the point. i went in today to school too, when i thought i could just work on my stuff at home, because i had to give the drive to hartley so she could work on the show. but in all honesty, i don't think it needs anymore work i spent a CRAP load of time finessing it last night. and the original plan was to let her do the rough while i fine tune it because i'm always a perfectionist when it comes to editing. so we'll see how much she changes it on monday, hopefully it won't be too much. i think she was pretty amazed at how much i worked on it too because she was expecting to work on it more at school, but good thing because she had to leave early anyway.

i think there's just not enough time. i have to finish my projects this weekend, and i have to go to pasadena to do my laundry tomorrow. so that will take like half a day. O_O i like staying busy, but i think i'm really starting to wear myself thin, and it's a little scary. i'm just glad corey (a producer who's documentary i'm doing graphics for) didn't email me the info for the documentary yet because i'd promised him i'd do the graphics in a week. i'm assuming the week will start as soon as he gives me the information so if he could hold off for maybe like two more days, i can focus on finishing my other stuff first.

okay, i think that's enough stuff for this first entry, although i have a lot more going on still, i'd figure i'd spare you all from this lengthy rant of what i'm dealing with. i'm not sure if i'll post every day, but we'll see what happens from this point on.

before i start hyperventilating again, i just want to say yesterday was the best day of my life!

we caught jun so many times it was like perfect timing all day. XD we got to see him before anyone else did taking press pictures at around 4:15 pm and stood 10 feet away from him, we sat on the right side so that we were RIGHT THERE when he went up and down to the stage. and if we didn't sit on that side, i wouldn't have been able to HAND HIM FLOWERS, HAVE HIM LOOK ME IN THE EYE AND TELL ME THANK YOU, AND TOUCH HIS SOFT HANDS! OMG. and if that wasn't enough, we decided to leave the reception early, and just as we were coming out of the corridor, THERE HE WAS AGAIN WALKING BY with body guards of course because all these girls were chasing him, but as he passed us, we waved and said bye one last time! XDD

it was worth everything! the standing in line for 3.5 hours in the heat, with heels on. i would do it again in a heartbeat. if only he read the note on our flowers, and lets arashi know how much we love them so that they can do a concert here for their 10th anniversary!

but all i have to say is that jun is everything i thought he would be and more. his personality was exactly what i thought, gentleman-like, kind, gentle, cute, considerate, it was amazing to actually see it in person. i will remember this for the rest of my life. i will meet them all in the future. XD i'm just happy this first experience proved that they are exactly what they portray, they're not faking, and that they are really genuine. although some people will never understand this (people who don't know about JE) i'm just satisfied in knowing that everything that i thought of them, and all the reasons why i love them are justified and i will continue to love them forever.

omg jun in 6 days...that's all i have to say. XD

wow so it's been a long time since i've posted. actually i haven't posted since i joined lj, which is pretty sad. i think i will attempt to post more of what's going on with my life lol cause otherwise i seem like a really boring person. sometimes i feel like there's so much going on, that it's so hard to even post all of it. let's just say it's a new quarter i CAN'T believe it's april already, new projects, new stresses, new opportunities, new excitements, and more. i feel like as spring arrives, it brings a new feeling, and new hope for all my goals and dreams that i am desparately trying to reach.

i don't know if all that made sense just now, because i'm really tired haha, but i just feel renewed for some reason, thinking of all the things that are coming up. i mean, don't get me wrong, i'm still EXHAUSTED from last quarter, and i don't think i've fully rested, but i think i'm ready to take on what comes my way.

so this is the lineup for this quarter so far:

internship at create advertising (trailers yay! i want my work to be in the theateeeerrrrrrrrrss!!)
animated short film (3D modeling)
documentary piece (editing)
certification preparation for final cut pro (editing)
magazine/newspaper animations (digital composition)
opening title for the debut show (digital composition)
phi theta kappa honor society
japanese (mon & wed night)

and i think that's pretty much it in terms of school. it's A LOT! thank god for JE, i swear i think i'd go crazy if i didn't have johnny's to look forward to every morning, day, and night lol.

well i think this post is long enough haha. and i'm excited for my new layout! yay! OHNO <3

ja!